Archive | entertainment RSS feed for this section

Rant 1

29 May


It’s a fucked up sucked up
meat sack of a place
that’s being torn down worn down
and is eroding into space

when you prefer buildings to trees
and poison to fleas
getting down on your knees
in an effort to please

some king some god some unworldly man
all the while brewing his in-articulated plan

you’ve been bushwackled, bamboozled
thought you were wide eyed just to end up a spectacle

now it’s all being laid bare
and with a last ditch effort to get you to stare
to some place far over there

there’ll be some droppings of bombs
maybe a few tons
and we’ll all look away while they continue their play

for our resources no one cares about your money
it’s all about the bees and their honey

because that’s what they’ve taken away
while they get our eyes always to stray

to each other – look at him, he’s gay
and she’s convinced that religion’s the way

the republicans, the democrats
the whites and the blacks
all a subterfuge for the real attack

but freud was mistaken in his final analyzation
for my father and mother were also forsaken
by a society that let them grow up in a situation
that pain is okay and punishment deserved

but you are society so I understand
you were unwittingly part of the plan
to get me to look at my mom and my dad
and never look farther to what’s really bad

the conflict within is caused from without
we are not born with a headful of doubts

and our parents and grandparents are not to blame
also being born into this intricate game

but as long as we can blame each other
we’ll never see beyond our own brother

to the guy with the gun at his head
poking and prodding him too into dread

what’s really going on may actually not matter
just that they’re wasting our time with jibber and jabber

once again diverting our eyes
from what’s been all along the one and only prize

while we run around for another dollar
they grab another forest by the collar

another river full of oil
a bit more poison in the soil

but keep looking at the president’s mistakes
and wars taking place between sovereign states

because all that’s important is our attention
while our world is raped of its regeneration


4 Dec

 “Nor is it ever nor will it ever be for now it is all together” – Parmenides

We are limited to all events that are possible


booklet page 3a


If you ever do pick up a copy of After the End, you’ll see a page in the booklet – opposite an arrangement of the I Ching – titled, “An Introduction to Clearisms”. There is, however, no explanation there.

In my previous blog, “An Axiom”, I introduced you to Jeff Sollars and the conversation which led to, among other things, the statement “all things are mirrored on all levels”. Clearisms are another result of this conversation. In fact, they were pretty much sentences that actually came out of someone’s mouth at one point or another. Often with much humor. They were the bits that we just had to write down, so we did.

If forced to define them I would say that they are somewhat westernized koans. Meaning that they’re not riddles at all. They’re bits. Bits that we thought were funny or poignant. Or both. I present here our full list from our week together. Think you have some too? Why not stick them in the comments?


If it’s not rich with paradox then it probably isn’t really just is.

On some level, somewhere, possibly.

You wouldn’t even want to if you couldn’t.


I believe, I think, I’m not sure.

In one eye, out the other.

One step closer to the nuthouse and saner than I’ve ever been. Stark raving sane.

Rationality (logic) is beautiful and beauty is rational (logical).

All possibilities. All worlds.

By hurting ourselves we hurt the Earth. By strengthening ourselves we strengthen the Universe.

All matter is a manifestation of some “frequency” of energy.

Sometimes it’s necessary to use all of our senses to make sure something’s not real.

There’s a degree of trepidation in returning to a place you’ve never been before.

If it works really well it should just disappear.

Within our frame of reference everything that exists, exists.

We have to be a reflection, on every level, of something that we’re making up.

If you think the car might disappear, slow down.

It’s all you.

We can’t combine mind (science), body (art) and spirit (religion), they’re combined already. All we can do is separate them.

Well if you knew you were doing it you probably wouldn’t want to sometimes.

Life on Mars may not be on the same level that we see it.

All possibility and no possibility leave you with the same realm of possibilities.

If it doesn’t mean anything then it can mean anything.

Consciousness is conscious.

We are limited to all events that are possible.

Each level of consciousness causes the next level of consciousness.

If something happens that is perceived by no being on any level anywhere, did it really happen?

We are perceiving the lack of perception of something that is happening … that affects us.

Temporary reality never changes the eternal task at hand.


An Axiom

6 Nov

We cannot combine mind (science), body (art) and spirit (religion), they are combined already. All we can do is separate them.


Back in 1999, I sat with a friend of mine, “Captain” Jeff Sollars, for a conversation about the universe. We had come to understand that our educations were lacking in this field. At the time I was in graduate school and he was in the throes of exploration. We’re both well read and had come across plenty of literature – east and west – on these subjects, from material to spiritual to all things in between. Our problem wasn’t meaning or purpose, it was more a question of structure. Of understanding how it’s put together.

I guess it’s worth mentioning what we felt were some of the shortcomings of our modern look at the universe. First, our universal models are all based on logic. Always remember that logic is in the philosophy department of university. And, while our universal models seem to go a long way to express and predict things that happen, much of what happens in life is simply not logical. There are no if-then statements that are going to get you there. More, logical systems are flawed [Godel], so we had that going for us, which was nice.

Second, we felt that, as a whole, we just weren’t wholistic enough. There are times we could look at a tree with a leaf disease and study the branches for 10 years never realizing that the problem is in the soil. It took us a long time to see things like the effects of emotion, or the air we breathe, on health, because when someone is sick we focus so hard on the place that “it hurts”. How many of our treatments for one disease cause another problem somewhere else? And this attitude tends to run throughout our exploration. For us, it seemed like we were lacking a context. And this turned a lot of what we knew into what we termed unprocessed knowledge. The kinds of things that we know how to do, but still don’t appreciate their effects even on our selves.

So this is what we tried to do. Understand the context. And our conversation turned into days. And eventually over a week. And throughout, we tried to come up with our starting point. What I later came to call our axiom. Many things dawned on us during this conversation and, just through the sheer force of openness, we came to many understandings. Yet, each starting point eventually came to a place that caused us to go back to the beginning. Which is what we did each time we hit a wall.

The first transformative understanding I experienced – it must have been several days into our conversation – was the foundation of the connectedness of things. The one thing all life must do, I realized, was to share. Water must flow. Man must breathe. But more, water must evaporate and rain, man must inhale and exhale. It’s less a sharing and more a relationship. Our bodies don’t simply decrease in energy, get refilled and move on. They are not only constantly being refilled, but they are constantly transforming and returning their intake. To put it bluntly, we must eat, but then we also must shit. And while our excrement may have no energy value to us, it certainly has one to nature. In other words, just because we don’t use it doesn’t mean the dung beetle wouldn’t be happy to have it. At least until it’s soil. Which would mean plants and trees. And so our conversation began to move into these relationships.

We began to consider the relationship between the plant and animal kingdoms and something very interesting came out. First, as we all tend to know, plants and trees provide us with oxygen while we provide them with carbon dioxide. That is, while we inhale oxygen and exhale carbon dioxide, they do the opposite. But let’s consider our relationship on another level. Chlorophyll – the stuff cruising around plants – is green. This means that when light energy (like sunlight) hits a tree, it reflects the blue and yellow frequencies, but absorbs the red frequencies. Well, again, we are the opposite. The hemoglobin being carried around in our blood is red, which means that it absorbs the blue and yellow spectrums and reflects the red. So, again, in light energy, our relationship remains consistent. So how about the physical? Well, as stated above, doesn’t our waste become plant fodder? And aren’t fruits, nuts and vegetables the released products of their intake? No wonder we wash it before we eat it!

Looking at this system, we began to see the complete relationship between plant and animal. One in which energy – air, light, physical – is shared. And that’s just the parts of it that we’re aware of! It dawned on us that this is the measuring stick we were looking for. That our starting point, our axiom if you will, would be summed up by the statement: All things are mirrored on all levels.

google image illustrations of phi, the golden mean

First, truth is repetitious. For, if something is true it must be true everywhere. As if the truth is the relationship itself and the rest of it is the reflection of that truth. As if!

Second, repetitive patterns have a context. They are a reflection – a mirror – of a relationship. They are, perhaps, also the relationships themselves. As breathing next to a tree is both the illustration and the reflection of the relationship.

And thirdly, there is no such thing as a truth anomaly. If a pattern can be shown to be false in one instance of a relationship then that can not be the truth, on any level, of that relationship. Which I think is a little bit like saying that if the laws of gravity fail even once then physicists will have a lot of revamping to do.

These ideas began to guide our exploration and open our understanding of the world around us. It is not math but, then again, math is not perfect. And while we can perhaps experience something as contradictory, to the universe itself there is no contradiction.

More, this gave us the ability to really get a picture of a universal structure. One built upon relationship, repetition and growth. As structures become more complex, relationships evolve and patterns increase in complexity, but always follow the guideline of the relationship. So the context is always there. Patterns lead us to relationships and relationships identify patterns. Isolated patterns become vehicles of self growth when considering that your experience is somehow not in line with a relationship.

And since, as I’ve stated before, the questions are somehow more significant than the answers. And in the interest of allowing your journey to be your own, here are some of the places we were led by these ideas. Maybe I’ll tackle some of our thoughts about them in future blogs. Maybe you’ll take some on in the comments. Or maybe introduce some of your own. 

What do the evolution of governments and social structures have to do with evolution of galaxies and star formations? What patterns exist throughout nature and, if they reflect a truth, where do we see them reflected? If everything is a mirror of something else then what are our mirrors? And what are we mirroring?

When we talk about “levels” what do we mean? If – referring to plants and animals – air, light and physical energy are shared in the same way, then are we sharing three different things or are we sharing one thing and experiencing it three different ways? Can we also talk about, say, microscopic, man-size, galactic as levels that follow the same patterns? What about planetary and universal? How would these physical levels themselves be defined?


After the End part 1 by Jeff Sollars aka rainydaysaint

For more of Jeff’s work visit his deviantart site here.


%d bloggers like this: